Nearing The End Of The Road

Today we had our final post placement visit.  In just 11 days (on May 15th) we will legally finalize our adoption in court.  We are nearing the end of the road.  It's been a long time coming.  I know I've been really bad about blogging.  Olive keeps me very busy, but now that she is sleeping more at night I've had the time.  However, every time I begin a post I can't seem to get it out.  I feel somewhat censored for one thing.  This is an open blog.  One that our agency could read.  I would like to blog about my experiences of new motherhood and it's challenges, but I'm afraid it would affect our case somehow.  Also, I tend to wait until I'm on the other side of an experience before I'm able to express what it was like.  No, I don't plan on waiting to blog once Olive is 18 and moved out.  But, I feel like there is so much that I'm still trying to work through.  I miss writing so I'm hoping to feel more open after finalization.